pedialyte and pickles.

every week seems to be harder than the last, but then again it's always so amazing to see where i've /we've come from. a lot of changes going on and this week there were def. shifts. incredible to watch and witness.

so it's the end of week four, tomorrow we being week 5. i cannot even believe it.

by wed. i was at my breaking point. it was intense but it came and went, on and gone like the last bout of emotional wave. the lack of sleep, 4 hrs of yoga, repeat buffet and endless studying totally came over me and i lost it on wed. a.m. i went into our 8:30 a.m. yoga class with pooched eyes a red face. it's funny how after yoga you just feel better. everything else in the world fades and you're there in the hot room not worrying or thinking about anything else. here and now is really what it's all about. staying in the present and doing what you can then and there. after yoga i felt great, no anxiety, no breathing problems nothing...until posture clinic and then it all comes back. it's okay though, i'm just glad that it comes and goes in waves, big, small, i'm okay with it. i def. know how to manage better and am aware. i broke down again in posture clinic. if you've read my roommate tara's blog you'll know that after you have this episode you're magically fine and huge weight is lifted. suddenly, it's okay to mess up and not recite the dialogue exactly verbatim. getting them in and out of the postures is a big part of dialogue so as long as you do it safely and within a reasonable amount of time then you're half way there. STILL, there is a lot of studying, i have a long way to go. 

we ploughed through 6 postures this week. is that insane? that's almost 1 and a bit a day. yikes. way too much and i think the senior instructors realized this because we got friday night off again. it's such a god send when the words fly out of their mouths during friday night class, "you're off! have a great weekend!" it's literally like angels and fairy dust sprinkling all over the hot room and we're  on the top of the world....and then suddenly our exhaustion is magically gone and we hit up walmart for a night out on the town! the silliest things excite us here...

next week bikram and his wife are back. we're SO thankful. i will take sleepless nights over studying dialogue worrying about posture clinics. lectures will go LATE, prob. until 1 a.m. and then there's those late night hindi movies that go till 4:30a.m. anything to not have to worry a buttload over posture clincs. this weekend i have worked ahead so hopefully, i will be okay with my postures. i've taken on 80/20 study strategy devised from a smarty pants girl i met, kimberly. she's from BC and will be in toronto when we get back from training, we'll def. have to hang out. she's pretty great. i think she's on to something because studying in small amounts throughout the day has been working for me. you really on can retain and focus in doses of 15-20 mins each so it really makes sense. after too long, you loose your attention span and focus. so, for the most part it's been working.

calm seas don't make good sailors.

rock the boat,

marj